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天津冷了嗎？很多朋友這樣問。坦白說我還真沒感覺，因為現在一天大概有二十三小時五十五分鐘都在有空調的室內活動，工作、看電視、吃飯、運動……，都在恆溫的狀態下進行。「活像生活在無菌室一樣。」我跟MAG說。

我想到了收音機頭的Fitter, happier，如清單般的一連串規律生活所要遵循的事項：:

Fitter, happier, more productive,
comfortable,
not drinking too much,
regular exercise at the gym
(3 days a week),
getting on better with your associate employee contemporaries ,
at ease,
eating well
(no more microwave dinners and saturated fats),
a patient better driver,
a safer car
(baby smiling in back seat),
sleeping well
(no bad dreams),
no paranoia,
careful to all animals
(never washing spiders down the plughole),
keep in contact with old friends
(enjoy a drink now and then),
will frequently check credit at
(moral) bank (hole in the wall),
favors for favors,
fond but not in love,
charity standing orders,
on Sundays ring road supermarket
(no killing moths or putting boiling water on the ants),
car wash
(also on Sundays),
no longer afraid of the dark or midday shadows
nothing so ridiculously teenage and desperate,
nothing so childish - at a better pace,
slower and more calculated,
no chance of escape,
now self-employed,
concerned (but powerless),
an empowered and informed member of society
(pragmatism not idealism),
will not cry in public,
less chance of illness,
tires that grip in the wet
(shot of baby strapped in back seat),
a good memory,
still cries at a good film,
still kisses with saliva,
no longer empty and frantic
like a cat
tied to a stick,
that's driven into
frozen winter shit
(the ability to laugh at weakness),
calm,
fitter,
healthier and more productive
a pig
in a cage
on antibiotics.
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昨天天津起了大霧，望出去一片灰濛濛，頗有老電影氣味的不真實感。班機延誤、公路封鎖，合作的日本廠商不斷鞠躬道歉、答謝，我也一愣一愣地鞠躬答禮，活像彈珠台的兩根揮把，一上一下， 彷彿深怕破壞了這個平衡，小心維護的彈珠就會從中間的隙縫掉落，再也尋不回來了。

來天津三十天了。「也可以稱之為一個月，我不介意大月小月的差別。」一邊甩著筆一邊這麼想著，如果真要計較又如何呢，明天不就貨真價實滿一個月了？明天，總是會帶來答案。